I almost wasn't sure you were real
As if you belong in another realm
not just another time
Perhaps in a dream I once had
or a fantasy I made up to escape
Perhaps you've changed
I hardly recognise myself
Will I recognise you?
Will you recognise me?
And then, one familiar turn after another
There you are
Just exactly as I remembered
A few upgrades here and there
but fundamentally you. really. are.
and I am awash with emotion
Hello hello! I'm here! I came back!
The child wants to run, splash, scream
Memories tumble through my body
Memories of you, memories of the me
that you allowed me to be
All the stories held in our kinship
In-between and re-membered now
Reminiscing, I smile, I cry
You shine. Every bit as beautiful
You unleash a deep joy in me
and I realise
that you were my first love
And oh how I loved you
I even love the me I was with you
I can hear her
She's loud and strong
she's playful but clear
she's enthuuuusiastic
innately encouraging and free
and oh so alive
She was in her element
Rising to her fullness
with the ease and grace of
This grey heron on a thermal lift
And now she is me
And I stand here, our bodies connected
in visceral embrace
Skin awakened by your breath
warmed by this gift of near-Spring sun
shining on us
I'm so happy to be with you
With she
I need to take her with me
And you? Will you come?
I don't want to go
Don't want to leave you
I want to start a new conversation
Grow into a grown-up love
Sit here with you in silence
and listen to you tell stories
of the girl you remember and loved
You do remember right?
Please say you do
It would mean everything to me right now.
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